My cat: 8 years later and it's still like it happened yesterday...

by Bill C

My male Siamese Ozzy was taken in by my mom when he was 6 months old. He was a stray beaten by kids in the area. I met him and was loved by him ever since. In 2003, October 8th, I found out he was terminal. He died 48 days later... My life has not been the same and I still think about killing myself cause it hurts soooo bad still. I have his ashes. My mom cries all the time still too.


I'd give my own life right now to bring him back. He was shorted out of his. Me, I am 40 and now I don't have anything to live for...

Comments for My cat: 8 years later and it's still like it happened yesterday...

by: Anonymous

Thats how I felt when my cat had to be put down. I had him my whole life. He was my best friend, like a brother. He took care of me and I took care of him. He was my life
He was 18 when we put him down and 18 days later my 3yr old cat got ran over. I was heartbroken and wanted to die :[

I am soooo sorrrry for your loss. Cats are like people, even better and more understanding.

God Bless you!
by: Rick H

My wife died on May 14 2011
my days have been very much filled with looking after our two Cats Kitty and Frankie thank god for them helping me through this time,
My siamese got out and got hit By a car yesterday
I am hurting more than I can take..
frankie every night came and layed his head on my hand and purred us to sleep after our cry and missing my wife!
I love you my Buddy RIP Frankie Blue Eyes
take care of your mommy and she will take care of you!!

I will be with you Two Very Soon!!

Your loss
by: John B.


I saw your post and I truly hope you are doing OK.

Seeing it brought me up short, becauase I too, lost my beloved Siamese cat, Fidel, in Feb 2009.

I immediately felt utterly devastated and alone, but I assumed that over time the feeling would diminish and I would get over the loss of my beloved friend.

However, it has been over 2 years, and I think that if anything, the pain is becoming worse, as I compare him with other cats, or even other people. He had such a loving soul, and wanted nothing more than to love and be loved. I provided so much, and needed so little.

I hope time will heal your pain. Take care.

For Bill.....
by: Susan

Dear Bill. This story is for you.

This is one of the kindest things you may ever see... It is not known who replied, but there is a beautiful soul working in the dead letter office of the US postal service.

Our 14 year old cat, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,
Will you please take care of my kitty? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my kitty even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her... She likes to play with balls and chase string. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my kitty. I really miss her.
Love, Meredith

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it... Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, 'To Meredith' in an unfamiliar hand.. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, 'When a Pet Dies..' Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:

Dear Meredith,
Abbey arrived safely in heaven.
Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.
Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your kitty. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by..
Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you. I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much. By the way, I'm easy to find, I am wherever there is love.


Please Hold On...
by: Dr. Neely

Dear Bill,

As cat lovers, myself, all of my staff, the readers of this website, and so many others, we can all understand how deep and devastating the pain of losing our beloved cats can be. Of course, what I am about to say is not to devalue that pain, but as hard as it is, the loss of a pet is an inevitable part of being a cat owner. This unfortunate reality is so difficult, but the love you experienced while he was here and the love you gave such a gentle being, the hope is that it was all worthwhile.

Someone like yourself, who has such a capacity to love so strongly, has so much to offer to other cats in need. If you do believe your little boy is looking down on you, I would hope you would know that he would be so happy and so proud to have you give the love he was blessed to have to others who are equally in need of it as he was.

Furthermore, your baby would be so sad to see you in so much pain since, as you know, he loved you tremendously. While I, too, believe that you will see him again some day, I do not believe that now is the time. You still have so much to give the world, especially other desperate cats in need.

8 years is a long time to be in such raw pain of any loss, whether human, feline, or canine. If you haven't already done so, I would suggest talking to a therapist, counselor, or other professional to help you through this very real and very raw grief. Loss is tremendously hard, and sometimes we all need a little extra support to get through it.

You have my absolute deepest condolences and sympathy. I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved pet.

With sympathy,
Dr. Neely

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